:: Crash and cornerstones ::

e diel, 21 tetor 2007

Anthem Of the Already.

To those that felt the cut of regret
The stench of missing jigsaws
The poison of old and faded pictures

all that came from a broken ended relationship.

You take your broken, bleeding heart and let it in the sun to dry.
If it's still raining, fret not
For it stops when you want it to.

You do all you need to do

Say all you need to say

Cry all you need to cry

And then tap on your stronger self and get up and freaking walk away from the past
don't let it sting you, stratch you, hurt you spoil you humiliate you.

Yes... For when there's a room in your empty heart. Then and there you start to wonder whether any divine being is out there watching all this.

and i'm telling you. There is absolutely one does and who loves you to bits.

Signed Off @2:23 p.d.

e mërkurë, 17 tetor 2007

For the First time

"Naked a man comes from his mother's womb
and as he comes, so he departs. He takes nothing from his labor..."

Ecc 5:15

A man walks over to the oasis in the distance. As he Reached the oasis, he was captivated by all it brought him. To his eyes, it was cheese to a mice. He took out the map he had and read the instructions once again.

"You will pass by the oasis. just drink up and get on your way, The destination is yet to be."

He shrugged and had his eyes bouncing off the map and the beautiful sight all around him. He looked to is left and to his right. Nothing as pleasant was in the distance. So he settled down. Then and there, he forgottened abt the map and the oasis became his home. Little did he know that somewhere not too far away, was someplace more magnificent. more sparkling than the oasis.

Time passed. As he drew near to his dying breath. He saw tht he was all alone and the once beautiful oasis was now a used up disposable land. He then remembered the Map and the intructions given. He looked once again at the ancient map and Located where he should have been. AS he looked carefully into the distance, he saw a light that blew away all his frustrations, loneliness and fear. It dawned on him then, how he carelessly made this temporal place his home. As he tried to make his way there. He found he was short of breath. Just like the fading and crumbling oasis, he too was affected by the spell, and was not able to carry on the journey...

As he was nearing his death

Signed Off @7:43 p.d.

e enjte, 11 tetor 2007

The title says it all.

I'm just so lost for words for today. Just do not know how bad can today be. Lets start here. I had this Youth olympic games thing in the morn. Had to jump in the mid day sun. i missed lunch and well i thought asll was well. but when i hit 3.30 pm the day kinda went very bad

First i got from coach. 100 push-ups cause i went to jump without his permission. and i did not cover the pit. so the pit was flooded. So that was not too bad. coach was angry but he seemed to get over it. Then came my butt pain. what do you get after straining so hard? So again. i had to endure coaches anger. I shall not blame him. Cause i know it's what i did wrong. So i apologised.

But if i knew, i would not have jumped!

Then already downcasted. i thought the day could not get any worse. For injury+scolding from coach is not too good a combi., Then after the wondrous dinner with akang, Binz and Ben > 2BMC.(YOU GUYS ROCK) i went home knowing somethings wrong with cheng. And found out that he and the rest of the jumpers had to clear the water that flooded the open pit for me. I really seriously, honestly absolutely did not know i had to do it. if not i'd have helped. but again what to do. they already did it. All i can do is apologise.

But if i knew, i would have stayed to help!

So just when you have your best friends angry at you, your coach angry at you, injured and not able to train and build up for next year etc. you really do not want any more stuff. but i knew God had more installed.

when i got home. My mom sensed i was cold. so me and my mom aren't exactly on best terms. so she started scolding me for being so weird and reading the bible ( i had to do it for peace) and not talking to her(coz she hardly listens) and so accused yet again. I knew then again God wants me to honior my parents. so i apologised to my mom and told her my bad day. which again she talked most of the time. so she did not listen. o well.

yeah. but at least the end of the day is near.

if i live for today
then today is over
Just thank God and not hold a grudge
leave the rest to God

Forgive all those that have cause me hurt today
and hope they would forgive me

I pray for a tomorrow
that will be blessed
but i'm hanging on proverbs 15.1

"a gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger"

i shall take all the harsh words. but i will always give all the gentle answers.
thank you JESUS for the strenght today

Signed Off @7:35 p.d.

e enjte, 4 tetor 2007

I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes.

Romans 1:16

Hello!

here's a lesson from an SBS bus.

You wait impatiently or patiently at the bus stop. You have a number in mind. ranging from 1 to 999. There people waiting with you. Will they enter the same bus? Will they encounter the same journey?

The Destination is far. it's from one terminal to the other.

"Finally! it's here! " you say... you board the bus. You sped of hastily to find your favourite spot, settled down, felt comfortable and took out you Mp3 player. On and on the bus ride went. You frequently glance around to get a lonely glance at the people on the same bus as you. As the

wheels rumble, the people fumble.

Some get up, some get out

To your delight or dislike, someone popped in next to you. the person hardly showed any sign of acknowledging you, and so you were just put off he became a hindrance to your comfort.

The scenery whizzes by

the time winds by

Your heart runs dry

your mind grips and die...

and there you are! you awaken to find yourself in a totally different company. The smug face next to you was gone and only a few people were left on the bus. Slowly but with great relief, you made your way past the pale red seats, holding on to the poles for support as

you got off the bus...

We sometime s don't realise

but we live like we are on the SBS bus.

We live life.

ever seeing

never knowing

the people that enter in

We live life

ever travelling

never remembering

the places that we've in

We live life

ever being

never loving

doing the most important thing

We live life

knowing people walk in and out of our lives

and they need help

they need help

but we plug ourselves out from the world

and get off the life with the few people you did not know...

Signed Off @7:48 p.d.

e mërkurë, 3 tetor 2007

I blogged. but it was not posted up. oh well. here another one!

last Sunday. i went over to Ben's place to stay. his house is entertaining. in fact i did try out all the stuff there. well just his 6 guitars. lol! i recorded a song. which like was one that Ben liked. yay! well i like it too. okay here's the lyrics

saw thousands upon thousands
smelt the spurt of blood
will i go
will i go

when the odds are stacked agaisnt me
my life is at stake
will i die
will die

cause you took the cross
for my sin
so i could
live within
your blood gushed out
from your side
the only reason why i stand by your side
and fight

The cross before me the world behind me
i'll run for you
i'll stand for you
The battle before me my comfort behind me
i'll fight for you
i'll fight for you

Yeah! thats it. well the story behind comes with consecutive dreams of war and persecution. i will not pretend i'm oblivious, but it's quite obvious many parts of the world is at war now. that very soon. as Jesus said. it's our turn to step up to fight the war. spiritual warfare or a physical one. I'm not too sure. Well one night, the dream was so vivid. that i actually wrote the song in just like that!

So Thanks Ben. your input was like, so handy and complimenting :)

Oh yes. Today, dear Kang and Yusof are off. for thai open. SO... its going to be one less friend here. :( but nevertheless. still have the autistic guy. haha! hope he studies well. I think he has the discipline. but if your ask me, he'll study and then play winning eleven. LOL.

Very briefly. Today i had the chance to experience chem and physics class with O's lvls students. it was ALMOST an experience, just that i was behind a transparent window pane. Oh. the mock tests. the revision. oh the pizza's. They have 22 more days i think. well wish my friends all the best! Yet again. i never fail to make them stare at the window pane.

alright! That is that for now.

by the days
by the days
you'd be surprised
if you take the time
to let Time be time
and Moments be moments.

Signed Off @7:12 p.d.