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e premte, 9 korrik 2010
i cant really explain what I feel and how I feel.
It's a sucky posting. Camp. vocation. It's going to be 5 months of trainee. In which. I dunno how much I will be able to train. Talking about training. I don't even feel like training anymore. I hate it when I see my friends in track dropping out here and there. Here I am feeling like doing the same thing. Why do I even want to bother so much. to seemingly tire myself out more by doing my own personal training... on top of the already chiong trng of my vocation? all of this for what? A dream, A passion but yet when I want to get somewhere. I can't. This would have to be the sian-est thing that happens to me.
I took the risk but I never knew that a man could be vocationally trained for 5 months. not enough research and not a very informed decision.
So stay positive... The commitment to track? The will to continue? Now as this chiong man in the army. I have little with me. I wish I could drink this phenomenon away. but thats obviously is not going to work.
jailed for 5 months in some chiong place thats sandwhiched be vegetation and cemetery. I dunno but I think Im suay. Things could be worse. I could be born in Africa.
Signed Off @8:36 p.d.
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