The Break of Breaking Free

Hey. Guess what. O's is like so almost over accept for those bio people.
I just feel like that tower of O's is down for my peers. I can also feel it coming down

after all thought i did not experience it, seeing them going through it is also quite tensing for me.

The past weeks have been a mixture of disappointments and joy. Well, school mates may all know abt the prom and all the mishap etc. Well I really learnt lots of things la. Then again, at least i know i tried.

I fought the good fight, i finished the race, i kept the faith.

Well That's all that counts. Well throughout i felt like God was speaking to me through that experience. Just that day when I was like so helpless to stop the people from cancelling the prom. Well i sat down and started telling God how unfair and how disapointed and wronged i felt. I just knew that I put in so much of time and effort and the last thing i wanted was people to just change it at the las minute because they did not feel like it. But i Guess that's life. and again i can't make everyone happy. So i'm okay that it happened la. But ya as i was telling God blah lah.

just felt Him telling me his story.

He too is working, everyone second, every minute. Making ways and paths for me. Giving me breath and making the earth spin. Maintaining the carbon and water cycle. Making sure asteroids capable of shattering the earth just shun us. He maintains my relationships. Gives me loving parents. and trust worthy friends. And sometimes I complain. Just like how i planned the programme out and people just complain abt it. The hurt i felt inside was really enormous.

But at the moment God asked me to feel HIS hurt.

And i realised tht each time i bring an unapprecitaive attitude to life. It's like saying God's not doing enough. It does not piss God off. But it saddens Him. I felt convicted at that moment to praise Him. Knowing that it's the only thing i can do to really bring a smile to His face.To understand this life is not mine, and it's given. I was created, purposed to lift God's name high.

So i was tempted to hold grudges. after all, didn't I have the right to be angry at the people whom i wanted to help but instead just showed unappreciation? Well Some say yes, Some say YESYES! but I thought NONO

Cause God did not hold anything agaisnt me although HE had the right to. why?

Cause he created me and he's God? So ya Hes has the right like it or not. But he did not. so

what makes me think i could?

There was a story told.

There was a man who owed a large some of money to the king. Like many many zero's kind of large. But he was in such a fix, he just knelt and begged the king to let him go, Because the penalty is death. The gracious king did what was according to his character, and let him go. SO this man was one lucky man- He deserved the punishmeny, but he did not receive it

Then as he was livng his life, he remembered someone who owed him some money. Now that money his loan this man was little. like ALOT lesser. but he threatened and pressed charges against this man who owed him money. Though he witness begging ang pleading, he was not willing to let him go.

The King, hearing abt this. was furious! He immediately had the ungrateful man to be executed.

'nuff said!

So this story guides me. along with many other true stories recorded in a book we humans call

the bible.